More often than not I’m in some sort of relationship. The last three relationship’s I’ve been in I did not want to be in. I was convinced. I told each and every one of them that I did not want to be in a relationship and I was not ready to be in a relationship. So why did I say yes?

Why did I say yes? Was I happy? Am I overly optimistic? I don’t think that’s how my friends and family would describe me but maybe. Am I desperate? I don’t feel desperate. I often feel greedy. I love dating. I think I’m at my best self when I’m being romantic, flirty, and free. But why do I always willingly cage or chain myself to another person. I do love the idea of being taken care of but I don’t feel a lack of it in myself. So what is it?

When I’m dating I feel greedy like I’m taking a singular big bite of delicious meal. I will I cared less about other people’s feelings when I’m dating. I feel like I begin to adjust my actions based on their reactions to me. I’m trying not to do that. Honestly so far it’s going well. I’m on like day 1 of dating lol. I’M SINGLE BITCHESSSSSS I’M SO EXCITED ABOUT IT HEHEH. Also i redownloaded hinge