But Im still going to cancel my thanksgiving flight

With the recent government shut down I saw first hand how the flight situation was a shit show when I missed my flight from New Orleans. Even with getting to the airport 2 hrs before my flight and having TSA pre-check I missed it.

Before the shutdown I booked a flight to go back to Tampa to visit my evergrowing baby nephew. I was going to have a layover in MN so I’d be able to see my parents and siblings who I haven’t seen in over a year. Then I was going to drive to New Orleans, making a brief stop in Tallahassee for some money and an old fling (unrelated to each other, I promise I’m not a prostitute lol).

Although the NOLA flight ended up working out, IDK if I want to deal with that in addition to the hectic thanksgiving crowd. Plus I was feeling pretty confident that it would probably get cancelled as so many other flights had recently been.

At first I was a little sad and stressed but then I realized through all of those feeling hid relief. Now with the government reopened and flights resuming I am left to make my own decision. Should I stay or should I go?

With having a week off every month, I have been given the opportunity to experience so many amazing things this year.

I spent my birthday in Italy.

Spent a week camping and then partying with my closest friends in Seattle.

I have seen Brooke (thats you pookie) every single month this year even though we live thousands of miles away from eachother.

With all of the rotations I’ve have had and the trips that I’ve loved, my heart is full but my energy is depleted.

I have always wanted to maximize my time away from work because I am there so much but in that maximization I seem to have forgotten my need for rest. As much as I would love to visit with family, I feel like I should just sit my ass down and relax this time. My house is a mess, my ankle keeps reswelling and I feel like I am losing the few connections I have in Oregon by never being here and available. I want to build a community here but that can’t happen if I leave every time I get a chance to.

But even with as much as I’m feeling called to stay here and get my home life together I’m also afraid that by day two I’ll be bored and get FOMO. Both feelings are so so strong and IDK what I am going to do.

My flight is still booked so I guess we’ll find out on the next episode…

TO BE CONTINUED.